damage limitation

[ex2plore]

know it is essential for kids to remember happy times, to love & be loved by their extended family & try to put a good face on it but talking about things that happened in the past destroys me especially as they are often really bad-they were laughing that I stopped the fat pig beating robert with his belt tonight-i should not have stayed in that environment-was i nuts? Kids shd never have been born, it should all never have happened.
Also hate them chatting about the in laws-nanny says. my auntie, blah blah harmless enough of course but i hate it that they love & interact with people who think I'm crap and have alwats been unafraid to show it